day nine

Sorry for the lack of posts, life got a little hectic. So picking up where I left off....Things have not progressed with Joel, he went on a little vacation to Hawaii and I did not hear from him for like a week. Although I will say that when he came back he did start texting me again but he has yet to want to hang out or go on a date. I'm not really sure what I should do in this event but I am going to still follow it just to see what will happen. In other news, I went out last Saturday night with Hershey, we had a blast. I met a bartender at charlie's he was to say the least beautiful. He was single as I found out thanks to Hersh, but just my luck he informed me that he was giving up on guys for awhile. Ended that route real quick, to make things worst I was drunk and apparently posted an ad on craigslist under missed connections, trying to connect with him. Why is it that when we go out to bars the best looking guys who we seem to have connections with are always taken or giving up. I find myself constantly either trying to date a guy who is one of the above or I find myself being hit on by guys who either are to say the least not attractive or looking for a quick fling. Am I destined to be stuck with those as my choices?

day eight

So its been a few days, but my luck is still at non. I have decided to take it a little slower and not push so much towards dating and work more on a friendship, that will grow. Speaking of friendships, my friend Joel is still very confusing me, we talked every day this weekend for about 4-5 hours every night. The big thing that confused me, was last Friday he told me that he was going on a date. The night came and he started texting me and the next thing i knew it was around midnight so i decided to ask him about his date. He very casually said this was more fun and that he didn't really want to go on the date anyways. What? I was taken aback for a moment by this, here i was thinking he was just humoring me by always talking to me but then he cancels a date just to chat with me, who does that? Then i felt bad because if he doesn't like me and he still blew off his date to talk to me, that's not fair to Joel or his date. I just kind of let it go and didn't ask or say anything about it, I'm just scared now, was that my opening, was that his way of saying hey i have fun with you lets go out. I'm trying to convince myself not to look into it so much, but its hard not to, i really like him. But with that said I'm still going to slow down and look for friends. But where do I start looking for friends?